Hate (I Will Die Someone's Daughter)
Hate. Let me tell you how much I've come to hate being associated with queerness since I've been alive and how much I have to feminize myself to make you comfortable my femininity is not my own and belongs to everyone else and my masculinity will always be denied hell I'm not even seen as enough of a person to be addressed at all in most conversations. Let me tell you about how much people tell me it is a privilege that you don't think I'm hurt enough to deserve to be talked about when the only reason you think this way is because violence against me is written off and grouped with women because even in death I will never ever be a man
Can you please make space in your feminism for trans men can you please fucking make space in your transfeminism for trans men I'm so fucking tired of asking to be centered in conversations I'm so fucking tired of asking to be included in conversations about menstration and pregnancy I'm fucking tired of the idea of "transitioning into privilege" I experience misogyny on a level you will never ever ever fucking understand because I will never be good enough to be a man and never right enough to be a woman I'm tired of having the highest sexual assault rate of any group but never being talked about in trans conversations and I'm tired of having my manhood denied being seen as some form of fucking privilege no I am not happy to be invited to "women and nonbinary" or "women and femme" events no I am not your girl I will never be your fucking girl
Don't get me started on representation don't get me started on how we are somehow safe from conservative criticism like their favorite surgery to talk about isn't our fake dick and our arm grafts and our mutilated tits don't get me started on how there are no men at me in media at all and trans movements never invite people like me onto the stage don't get me started on the infantilization and feminization of east asian men don't get me started on how that impacts men like me but you don't care so what does it matter at the end of the day don't get me started on how people like me in history will only ever be reduced to hysterical women or girl power and never ever in their death be allowed their manhood
If the word hate was engraved on every cell of my body in this moment it would not equal one-billionth of the hatred I feel at this micro-instant for you for you for you for you for you
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